i need to survive

my mom left the country last sunday (april 6, 2008). she has her annual leave and she will stay there in the Philippines for a month. since i still have my work here, i was not able to come with her... so i'm alone here.

i need to manage everything on my own and thanks God im surviving.

It's the third day of my so-called independent month....28 days to go! whew!

alone has beauty

I do not know if you have ever been lonely; when you suddenly realize that you have no relationship with anybody - not an intellectual realization but a factual realization...and you are completely isolated. Every form of thought and emotion is blocked; you cannot turn anywhere; there is nobody to turn to; the gods, the angels, have all gone beyond the clouds and, as the clouds vanish they have also vanished; you are completely lonely - I will not use the word alone. Alone has quite a different meaning; alone has beauty. To be alone means something entirely different. And you must be alone. When man frees himself from the social structure of greed, envy, ambition, arrogance, achievement, status - when he frees himself from those, then he is completely alone. That is quite a different thing. Then there is great beauty, the feeling of great energy.
Alone Has Beauty - The Book of Life (December 1)