Hello world, it has been so long since I updated you with
what’s going on with me. Perhaps, I was indeed very busy with my
“happy-and-almost-perfect life” (that was I thought). Well, in between there are
problems and difficulties arising but I can say it was absolutely great. I felt
happy and contented because it seems like everything is just so right and that
God has blessed me with more than I deserve. Yes I thanked Him for everything.
But then, not all travel is smooth sailing. Not all journeys are
hassle-free. Life is never without hurtful moments. Life is never without pain.
The very reason that I am writing this post is not so inspiring, not at all. Yes
something went wrong. Sorry I can’t tell you the exact details but I just want
to let go of what I am feeling right now. I just need someone who will listen
because I could not take it all alone. I might just breakdown.
I feel betrayed. I feel unloved. I feel scared.
I wanted to get even. I wanted to share my pain.
I thought I was okay. I thought I can just easily forgive and
forget. But it was not that easy. In fact, it was the most difficult part of
experiencing pain, the forgiving part. You can’t leave the fact that only by
forgiving the person who hurts you will allow you to actually go through and
get over with the pain and start healing. Yes forgiving and forgetting is the
most difficult thing to do because you have to swallow your pride and act as if
nothing had ever happened. It is so hard, but it is the most liberating
part. It will allow you to truly move on and get on with your life.
I guess it will take a lot of time to do such thing and I’m hoping to be there soon.
