Friday, February 14, 2025

Tiny toes I'll never count

I took a pregnancy test on Jan 28 and it was positive but it was still faint. I’m using an app on my phone to note my period but for some unknown reason I must have forgotten to mark down the date of my last menstrual cycle. When I finally changed the app to pregnancy mode it showed that my expected delivery date will be on September 8, 2025. Me and my husband were both excited to have another baby. We both wanted it and we both prayed for it. We were trying since we went to Philippines last October 2024 and I can say that It wasn’t as stressful as it was the first time. 


On February 2, I started having brownish discharges. It’s just scant so I was not so worried at that time. I had it for 2-3 days and it stopped. I thought at first that it was implantation bleeding but google says that it will not occur before a positive pregnancy test. Only after implantation bleeding stops and a missed period, our body will produce enough HCG that can be detected by pregnancy test. 


I did another test on February 4 and it was positive again, the line is more distinct now. I know I was pregnant, I can feel it. Early pregnancy symptoms (nausea, breast tenderness and lower back pain) started kicking in as well. I’m happy, excited and anxious at the same time. Happy that finally our prayer was answered once again; Excited for another bundle of joy; Anxious about pregnancy and delivery ahead. We started sharing the news with some family, friends and co-workers. They were all happy to hear the good news. 


February 10 after my day shift, I was complaining of lower back pain, it was more intense. I rested after work but it’s not getting any better. Light spotting and cramps began that same night. I was in bed praying to God to give me and my baby strength to face anything that might happen. At 2:00 am of February 11, I started bleeding from brownish to bright red blood. It’s like having a period, I was using the night pad and it was soaked. I was already passing blood clots at that time. I cried and I prayed. In the afternoon, I went to see my family doctor and she advised me to rest and take it easy and go for a blood test just to confirm the pregnancy so as to have an idea how far along am I. I might have to go for an emergency ultrasound she said. I was waiting for the result the next day, I continue to have heavy bleeds with clots and severe abdominal cramps and lower back pain. The following day, the bleeding is getting heavier. I followed up for the result but unfortunately there was no doctor available. We went to Grace Emergency and waited for more than 7 hours. I had blood works and ultrasound. That is when they told me that there was pregnancy loss. 


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