the day that we've all been waiting for...

it was almost 4: 05am when i finally got my sleep. i fell into deep slumber not because im sleepy. it was because i already forced myself to fall asleep keeping my eyes close even i wanted to stay awake the whole morning of christmas. my mind is reminding me that im tired but my fragile body doesn't feel anything at all. "you rest pls..." my mind is having difficulty transmitting and decoding that impulse that's why i was awake even my body is about to collapsed already.

I love this day. It may not be very important to some people but for most of us, this is the day that we've all been waiting for. it maybe just an ordinary day for some, a usual day that nothing so special about. but for me and for those millions of believers of Christ, "It's a day like no other."
But what is so different about christmas day?

It is special because it's Our Lord's day. Peace and calmness are felt during christmas morning when family celebrates together... when total strangers remove the line of unfamiliarity and acts as if everyone around is a member of a household under one roof...when people tend to smile rather than frown...when enemies forget and forgive and in a certain way they become friends...when people find time to reach out to their loved ones no matter how busy they are...but what is so great about christmas day is that there is a sense of unity among us inspite of the differences we have regardless of race and age. Like Fr. Michael used to tell us, we've waited long enough for this day but it passes very quickly, just in a snap of our fingers its gone. but... but its all worth it. every effort is paid off, every second of waiting is all worth it. Merry Christmas to ALL!

happy birthday Jesus

Jesus,

hello po. i wonder how old u r now. tumatanda k rin kaya poh...anyhow, i wish u happy birthday. Merry xmas and happy new year as well. I love you very much. sana happy ka poh... mwah. mwah. salamat sa lahat. mwah ---->>>cha

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merry christmas to all! this is actually my first christmas here. It's not that very bad but neither it was that good. Perhaps, i think i will not even remember this. haha..joke.

we've spent our christmas eve with our Filipino friends. it was also the birthday of tita jessica...so we stayed in her place.

happy bday to you

happy bday to you

happy birthday

happy birthday

happy birthday to you...

happy bday tita Jess

happy bday Jesus!

Tama nga sila, "malungkot talaga ang pasko pag wala k sa sarili mong bansa at lalong mahigit pag di mo kapiling ang buo mong pamilya". I dont even know how my mom manage to be alone every christmas. : (( Now i can feel how much she sacrificed just for our sake. tatag nga ni mami eh. ang tatag ng mga Pilipino dito...kahit malungkot go parin! kahit umiiyak na ang puso ngiti parin n parang wala lang... Party party para aliwin ang sarili. kantahan dito at sayawan doon sama sama kahit malungkot...mas maganda ung ganun diba? may kasama kang maging malungkot hahaha... hay. . . . .

yesterday, tumawag kami sa pinas. my mom talked to my dad and they both greet each other a merry xmas. alam ko sad si mami pero di niya pinapakita...haha on denial..hehehe. nung binigay niya ung phone sakin para kausapin ung dad ko...muntik n akong umiyak pero dahil im good in repressing such emotion naitago ko rin ang pagkasabik ko sa kanila pero sa loob loob ko gusto ko ng umiyak ng todo todo. di pwede. dapat maging masaya. dapat piliing maging masaya...

Joy does not simply happen to us---

sabi Henri Nouwen---> we have to choose joy

and keep it choosing everyday.

Pinipili nating magkaroon ng magaan na kalooban

kahit sa gitna ng matinding karanasan batay sa paniniwala

na tayo ay nasa Diyos and nothing,

not even death, can take God away from us.

*** inspired by father Egion during our retreat****

I know kahit sama sama kaming nagpasko dito...kahit mukha nmang masaya... bawat isa sa amin ay may tinatagong kalungkutan...ayaw lamang namin ipakita kasi kelangan naming maging matatag sa pagharap sa mga susunod pang araw...

..im such a drama queen. haha pero sadly totoo tong mga pinagsasabi ko....kaya ikaw kung malungkot k pilitin mo maging masaya para sa KANYA...

Jesus, happy bday ulit.