extremeness in life

when do you feel very pre-occupied? when do u feel u dont even know what is it that you feel? Dont know if its right to feel this way or not? How can you possibly cope up with the extremeness of what you are feeling?

how can you solve a problem when you dont even know what is it? dont even know how to describe it. dont know if its a problem or just part of our life we cant accept…

lots of unrecognized emotions, denials, sadness, madness, regrets, unanswered questions…all of which should be accepted even without undestanding it…without knowing why it happened for, why it happened now…for it will all be answered in God’s time.

i missed you lola. luv u.

im cold

hay, naku super lamig na poh dito...i never expected it to be this cold...prang may snow na...hahaha...sabi nga nila pag mainit dito super init at pag malamig nmn naku super lamig. as in super! u will be sick if u'll not wear jacket pero dun sa mga sanay na ok lng. lalo n ung mga makakapal ung balat at taba sa katawan pero ung mga kagaya kong sexy (hahahha) naku halos mafreeze na.

everyday, i used to wear 1 sando with blouse (yung makapal) then 2 jackets but then nanginginig parin me sa lamig. minsan nga nagbabaon p me ng socks eh. hahahha then pag gabi nmn hindi n effective ung simpleng kumot lng..dapat comforter na ang gamit mo.

hindi mo n rin pala kelangang gumamit ng ref kasi ung chocolate n iniwan ko sa table kusa nlng tumigas eh..hahaha...at pag magkakape ka inumin mo kaagad kung hindi para kng nagtimpla ng cold coffee..hahhaha

sana nga wag ng umulan ulit kasi sabi nila after ng ulan mas lalamig p ung environment...

anyhow, i still like it this way kesa sa super init.

welcome 2008

...wishing a better life for all of us this year...

goodbye 2007

few days from now, we will all be saying gudbye to the year 2007. before the year ends, i would like to share my year round learnings and realizations....

1. leave your worries to Him, surely things will be fine. just pray whole-heartedly coz He's there ever willing to listen and answer your prayers. He provides everything! you just have to be patient coz it is only He, who knows when is the right time to give you what you want and what you need.

2. treasure each moment you spent with your family...

3. be grateful. be very thankful for all the things He has given you. Try to appreaciate even the very small blessings you received.

4. be joyful. Harapin and bawat araw ng may ngiti sa labi at puso.

....we can't go back in time but we can treasure the happy memories and repress the "not-so-good" one...

goodbye 2007...

happy birthday Jesus

Jesus,

hello po. i wonder how old u r now. tumatanda k rin kaya poh...anyhow, i wish u happy birthday. Merry xmas and happy new year as well. I love you very much. sana happy ka poh... mwah. mwah. salamat sa lahat. mwah ---->>>cha

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merry christmas to all! this is actually my first christmas here. It's not that very bad but neither it was that good. Perhaps, i think i will not even remember this. haha..joke.

we've spent our christmas eve with our Filipino friends. it was also the birthday of tita jessica...so we stayed in her place.

happy bday to you

happy bday to you

happy birthday

happy birthday

happy birthday to you...

happy bday tita Jess

happy bday Jesus!

Tama nga sila, "malungkot talaga ang pasko pag wala k sa sarili mong bansa at lalong mahigit pag di mo kapiling ang buo mong pamilya". I dont even know how my mom manage to be alone every christmas. : (( Now i can feel how much she sacrificed just for our sake. tatag nga ni mami eh. ang tatag ng mga Pilipino dito...kahit malungkot go parin! kahit umiiyak na ang puso ngiti parin n parang wala lang... Party party para aliwin ang sarili. kantahan dito at sayawan doon sama sama kahit malungkot...mas maganda ung ganun diba? may kasama kang maging malungkot hahaha... hay. . . . .

yesterday, tumawag kami sa pinas. my mom talked to my dad and they both greet each other a merry xmas. alam ko sad si mami pero di niya pinapakita...haha on denial..hehehe. nung binigay niya ung phone sakin para kausapin ung dad ko...muntik n akong umiyak pero dahil im good in repressing such emotion naitago ko rin ang pagkasabik ko sa kanila pero sa loob loob ko gusto ko ng umiyak ng todo todo. di pwede. dapat maging masaya. dapat piliing maging masaya...

Joy does not simply happen to us---

sabi Henri Nouwen---> we have to choose joy

and keep it choosing everyday.

Pinipili nating magkaroon ng magaan na kalooban

kahit sa gitna ng matinding karanasan batay sa paniniwala

na tayo ay nasa Diyos and nothing,

not even death, can take God away from us.

*** inspired by father Egion during our retreat****

I know kahit sama sama kaming nagpasko dito...kahit mukha nmang masaya... bawat isa sa amin ay may tinatagong kalungkutan...ayaw lamang namin ipakita kasi kelangan naming maging matatag sa pagharap sa mga susunod pang araw...

..im such a drama queen. haha pero sadly totoo tong mga pinagsasabi ko....kaya ikaw kung malungkot k pilitin mo maging masaya para sa KANYA...

Jesus, happy bday ulit.

holiday

wednesday 12/19/2007 was actually my one and only off during the "bigger eid" (Eid al-Adha) so my mom and I decided to go to the beach (khorfakkan corniche). She also invited some Filipino frends to join us and have a picnic there.
we went there walking dala dala ung mga supot supot namin hahahha...then may nakita kaming balon, we stopped by to take pictures..

when we got there...dami n ring tao. i guess ung iba eh dun na nagpalipas ng gabi, sa tent nlng natulog. sabi nila ganun daw tlaga pag gantong holiday, marami talagang dumadayo n nanggaling pa sa malayong lugaer. usually daw galing dubai kasi dun may entrance ang mga beach samantalang dito wala. u can stay as long as u want without paying for anything and with matching "libre-iwan-ng-basura" pa. hahaha... bawal nga lng nakaswim suit kasi cgurado pagtitinginan ka. waaahhh! at sabi nila baka daw hulihin ka hahahha...ewan ko kung totoo un. kaya the most u can wear is shorts and t-shirt.

white sand at ang linaw ng tubig.. a very good place for relaxation. biruin mo ung ganto kagandang beach eh libre lng kaya nmn dinadayo ng marami. punta k kasma ang buong family and frends then ihaw ihaw lng kau dun, dala kau ng tent then un cgurado enjoy n. hahahaha

actually first time kong makita ang corniche ng umaga...usually kasi gabi kami lagi napunta dun pag may mga bday party. so now ko lng tlaga na appreciate ung ganda niya...wow!

pwede kng mag horse backriding (10 Dhs) pero ilang steps lng ng kabayo...waaahhhh! atleast nakasakay k ng kabayo...meron din nmng camel pero di ko p natry sa camel eh...maybe next tym. usually mga kids ung sumasakay..haha..eh bata nmn me diba kaya nakijoin n rin me. haha...honestly, first time ko makasakay sa kabayo kaya nga mukhang nanginginig p ako jan oh.

u can also ride a jet boat for 75 Dhs (30 minutes). next tym try ko rin pero dapat marunong n me magswim baka mahulog me at walng sumagip sakin mahirap na. haha. pwede din nmng sa mini ferry boat ka sumakay ililibot k for 15 minutes only (10 Dhs).
actually napakarami mong pwede gawin dito. meron p ngang mga playground for kids...may swing may slide...

sana nga magkaOFF ulit me para may tym ulit n magrelax...im looking forward to it...

hello world, im sick.

been very sick lately...the sudden change of weather here greatly affects my health. i can't blog, i can't chat, i can't even check my mails. huhuhuhu...maybe tom i will have the time and the energy to do my routines.... hahaha.

i have lots of things to post but dont know exactly when i will be able to do it...