She desires and deserves to be love. Similar to all other human beings, she needs someone to be with her side; someone who could understand her deeply even her shortcomings; someone who will inspire her not only to become better but to be in her best; someone who will remind her to take a break if things are getting out of control. Someone who will whole-heartedly accept her past, help her live with the present and be with her in welcoming the future. That someone needs not to be perfect. Being with that special someone can make her life a bit easier and worth living for. Finding and loving that someone would be her greatest victory. She might not ask for more…but that “someone” cannot be her private property.
to be a nurse here in UAE, requires u: to be perfect, to work and work and work, to answer non-sense questions, to welcome complains about almost everything, to smile inspite of verbal abuse, not to prioritize but to treat all patient as emergency, to deal with each and everyone as VIP. you are not allowed to commit even minor error...TO BE A NURSE HERE IS NOT TO BE HUMAN.
why do people gossip too much? its fine if they will talked about something positive. Personal opinions and comments that are inspiring, motivating, pleasing to the ear. but what if its about something that is degrading, offensive and humiliating... super negative thoughts that will not only hurt your emotions (as if stabbing you directly in the heart) but will injure your soul as well?
Its just very easy for us to comment negatively to someone but sometimes we need to think about it whether its proper to say it loud. we are all free to express our opinions on something about life and anything whether its positive or negative but somehow consider the feelings of the people around you. its okay if its just constructive criticism...atleast the "not-so-very-good-comment" of yours will serve as a challenge to improve someone's life.
Sad to say but gossip is already part of our society. its a habit for some who doesnt have to do anything about their life so they find it interesting to talk about other's life, perhaps maybe they're not personally happy with their own and can't tell it to their face that their "life sucks." yah their life sucks and they cant do anything to change it so they make yours suck more so they will suck less. waaaaahhh. stupid right?
i hate such people. its just fine if they will tell it to your face. but what if not and the "stupid-ignorant-you" doesnt know anything at all...finding out one day that you're the talk of the town because of such gossip from such "super mean people". grrr. isnt that very irritating? why cant they just simply shut up? why do they need to talk about you? what will they gain out of it? huh?
“For an instant, she thought she’d simply turn and leave. But again their eyes met and held for just a beat too long, and before she realized what was happening, Travis placed a hand on her hip, his lips neither soft nor hard against hers. It took an instant for her brain to register what was happening, and then she pushed him back.”
-the choice-
nicholas sparks
She felt as though she’s failing in every aspect of her life. For some people it maybe that perfect. She got a job and having one is such a wonderful blessing already because almost everywhere lots of people are getting laid off. She is with her family, which everyone wishes if they happen to be in an unfamiliar country like this. But it doesn’t give her that much satisfaction and comfort in life. Not even once did she ever think that her life was that perfect. Its not that she’s not thankful about every little good things she has but maybe she is just human, a very fragile one. Someone who is not contented, craving for more success and satisfaction she can get from things and from people around her. Someone who is tired…Someone who doesn’t know what she wanted in life… “What do I want?” she asked herself. She had been asking this question many times before. “What does she wants?” What does she really wants? Does it matter at all? Maybe it does because almost all of her life she had been doing what other wants…what can make them happy not what can make her happy. She thinks that by satisfying them can make her happy and contented. Before she was that happy but now why does she felt this way? Why is it that she doubts her feelings now? Is it because she wanted a different job? That the job she has right now is not the same as the one she was dreaming of? Is it because she doesn’t want to be here? That this place is not the exact place where she would want to be?
Knowing the fact that everything she has is not what she really wanted, but she can live with it…That’s what she’s been doing for years…trying to be happy and grateful with what she has. She didn’t even know why the hell she felt this way? …feeling down and lonely… Everything would have been okay but it feels that she’s missing something…that there is one piece of the puzzle that is missing and only by finding it can make everything fall into the right place…maybe by finding that someone might spice up her life and maybe she might have found it already but it’s just that she’s too afraid of so many things. Maybe this time she’s being careful, she doesn’t want to end up alone and cold because of very high expectations that aren’t met. Perhaps it’s better not to expect anything. Maybe if she didn’t expect things to end up the way she wanted it then she could have been that happy…truly happy. But it’s not that easy to do….
…life will never be that perfect…It can never be and I need to live with it…
